Sunday, June 17, 2007

That was nearly a disaster was the day that I was supposed to lead worship.
In a church.
In front of people.
While playing a keyboard.
And singing.

I messed up.

It was not a stellar moment in worship. My friend said that the Lord showed up...and that's all that matters. When we invite Him in that's all that matters.

Still, it would have been nice to have a better time of playing/singing. The guitar player said "Well, I'm glad that's over." in that tone of voice that said it was painful.

I talked to The Professor on the way home and he said "It's going to take practice and time." and My question is "Why do I have to practice in front of a CHURCH?" Luckily there were only about 12 people there.

I think the drummer felt sorry for me and said "You did great."

Liar. *L*

One thing about it - I'm VERRRRY humble right now.
Tonight, I sing with the praise & worship band at our church. I'm really glad that I'm only singing.

I almost feel sorry for the church. They really are guinea pigs. I'm laughing as I think about this morning - and I wonder if they'll appreciate their new worship leader now.


Kathleen aka Coffee Mom said...

You are braver than I would have been! Way to go!

Halfmoon Girl said...

God will use us even with flaws. God is bigger than any mistakes. You and the band probably noticed it more than anyone. That being said, I once sang an ATROCIOUS solo at church and still grimace and laugh just thinking about it. One person did compliment me on my dress after, that was about it. VERY humbling- but hey, being embarrassed didn't kill me. My mom and sister love me to re enact the solo for them so they can laugh and laugh. To this day, I cannot hear the song I Pledge Allegience ( I am totally blocked on the spelling of that word right now!) to the Lamb without cringing! Anyway, hope tonight went better for you!

ThoughtfulMom said...


I was praying that it would go well! I'm really sorry it didn't.

I played piano to lead worship in front of people in a church service...once. It was very hard, I totally screwed it up (and it was the doxology. I can't tell you how many times I had successfully played the Doxology - not that I remember it now).

I'm impressed that you can play and sing at the same time. I either mess up the playing or forget the words to the song. :)

In time, with practice - "not by might, not by power, but by my Spirit says the Lord of Hosts." :)

Classic MaMa said...

Obedience. That's all He's looking for. :) I'm sure all the angels were singing with you and that people were blessed.

jugglingpaynes said...

You must forgive me if I laugh. I believe I grew up as one of the guinea pigs for our church pipe organist and singer. If it's any consolation, he had greatly improved by the time I grew up and got married. :o)
Maybe it will be inspiration for those 12 people to sing louder.
Seriously, whenever we face the unknown we can sabotage ourselves. I cringe at my earliest juggling shows with my hubby where we couldn't catch a ball to save our lives. But we got used to it, and once we started enjoying ourselves, so did our audience!
Moral: Hang in there!

Peace and Laughter,

Anonymous said...


you know what.. we are our own worst critics..
and if God brought you there.. well.. He does know what He's doing doesn't He.. He has faith in you..
and i do too.. (~like i'm important you know.. right up there in the next line after God..)

Jenn4Him said...

No way would I even try, so you are a step ahead of many! Keep trying. Someone must have confidence in your ability to give you the chance!

The Woman said...

I'm sure the Lord appreciated your efforts. After all, it was all for Him... :o)

applesofgold said...

I'm sorry it didn't go better, but at least you were obedient to the Lord. That's the most important thing. And that you still have your sense of humor! LOL Holly

appleleaf said...

Good on you for giving worship leading a go. I've found that God does tend to "show up" when somebody new and fresh gets up front for a change, despite a few sticky moments.
There's a spirit of perfectionism and polish in many music teams. Sure, they're offering God their very best but sometimes it's been at the expense of the feelings of somebody else. I've always remembered when a friend of mine who played flute, after practising with the team for weeks, was asked to step down because the team leader didn't think she was up to scratch. She was very hurt and with tears in her eyes told me, "I don't think Jesus would've kicked me out!" I definitely would've loved the service more if they'd let her play.
I sure hope your leading experience will go from strength to strength. Always a pleasure to catch up with your blog,

Our Peculiar Life said...

I've been waiting to comment until I had something REALLY inspired to say. I still don't have anything inspirational to say but your post comes to me even when I am away from the computer so I feel like I NEED to respond. Alas, I still don't know what to say. I feel your pain. LOL! Really, I am laughing. not at you. With you. I have had very similar things happen to me and I cringe when thinking about them. I'm sorry you had to go through that. But God did something wonderful with it! I promise. That's His way. :-) You showed up and did your job. He showed up and did His. That's all that matters. Love you!