Revelation came...

It has been quite the week, let me tell you.
What get's my goat, what grates my cheese, chaps my hide, gets under my skin or gets it to boiling -- is that I didn't get the revelation until yesterday. Late.

It was an emotionally charged week. Lots of tears from me...lots of shouting from me...it was so bad, that had I not known better I would have taken a pregnancy test. It was THAT emotional.

I knew it wasn't just me. I figured it was all the stuff going on. We're behind in school work and house work due to sickness. We had swim lessons all week.

Yesterday I knew it was oppression. Oppression comes from an outside source to beat you down. I explained to The Professor that I knew it was oppression but wasn't sure what to do about it - I mean, besides telling it to flee. I knew there had to be a reason -- a source, if you will.
A Perfect visual -- I felt surrounded by FOG. So I knew that there had to be a fog machine. What was it??

I'm actually rather excited about this - because I want to learn and know. And because it's over.

Last night, I was thinking and realized I was being tormented!!

tor·ment n.
Great physical pain or mental anguish.
A source of harassment, annoyance, or pain.
The torture inflicted on prisoners under interrogation.

tr.v. (tôr-měnt', tôr'měnt') tor·ment·ed, tor·ment·ing, tor·ments
To cause to undergo great physical pain or mental anguish.
To agitate or upset greatly.
To annoy, pester, or harass.

Seriously, it was like a light bulb went off in a cartoonish sort of way. AhA!!!

Then last night, was praise band practice. Let's just say, that was quite the adventure, too.

Today - it's GONE!!!
The fog is gone.
Completely totally gone.
I feel light and airy.
Sunshiny.
No emotinal turbulence.
Giddy almost.

I'm pretty confident I'll have to retake this test...however -- one certain thing I know...
I'm glad I'm going to heaven. Because I know the torment in h*ll will be infinitely worse than the splinter of torment I experienced over this last week.

I felt so seriously about it - if I'd been walking near anyone (instead of driving, alone, in my car), I might have grabbed them by the arms to tell them 'You don't want to go to h*ll. Seriously. Let me tell you about Jesus....'

One minute I want to sing "I can see clearly now, the rain is gone." and the other minute, "I could sing of Your love forever"...so I'll settle for "How Great is Our God."