Sunday, February 21, 2010

I See You

When people tell me "It's good to see you!" after I've been away from them for a while, my heart wants to say "It's good to be SEEN!" Especially after that two week stretch when kids were sick and I was sick, or on those really difficult days of child training. It's just good to be seen.

Sometimes... I just need to know that it's good for others to see me.

One someone in particular.

In the movie “Avatar” they have a phrase they use to show honor to each other and the creation around them. “I See You” is used in a way to say that they see the importance of the one that they see. Whether or not they are killing for food or greeting a friend.

Now I preface my use of the movie example by saying that we won’t talk about the existentialism in this movie, just like people don’t talk about it in Star Wars. Just wanted to make that clear.

Because God used the phrase to minister to me. We had a few weeks. You know the kind. The weeks where nothing was going correct. We were sick, even though I prayed, we weren’t getting better - Which is UNUSUAL!

The Professor was having stress at work. There was stress at home. I couldn’t figure out what was going on. Did I have a confession on my lips that was creating more chaos? Instead of getting rid of it?

Then One day on Facebook someone I love and trust very much comes onto the chat feature and asks how I’m doing. I haven’t chatted with anyone in a long time, so it was a bit of surprise to have the chat window pop up and then to read what she had to tell me, I was even more surprised. And touched.

“You have been in my prayers throughout the night. I kept seeing your face, but you were smiling... a very peaceful smile. I would pray for you, for Doug and for your children and doze back off...

Then I would wake up.... I would say “Lord, do you want to talk or am I to war?” I heard war.... I saw you again, but you were smiling.... So, I warred that your peace would not be disturbed and the peace of God in your home would be ever present and the joy and peace of God would be ever rising up in Doug.... Doze off and woke up again... It was 6:37.....

I said, time to get up... anything significant about the time? I felt like Holy Spirit said Isaiah 63:7.

So I used Bible Gateway and looked it up in the Amplified:  I will recount the loving-kindnesses of the Lord and the praiseworthy deeds of the Lord, according to all that the Lord has bestowed on us, and the great goodness to the house of Israel, which He has granted them according to His mercy and according to the multitude of His loving-kindnesses.

We discussed my ears. At the time we had this chat, I had pressure in my ears. And couldn’t hear very well. I’ve not had pressure like that in a very long time.

She then told me something that could only have been Holy Spirit inspired: “Rehearse the goodness of God.... Rehearse Isaiah 63:7 LIke David rehearsed who God was and what God had done for him.. He had taken down the bear and the lion and He would take down Goliath! I believe this really is a key to your warfare and it is a rehearsing that will release that tightening (that is what I am seeing in the spirit, like a rope that is trying to squeeze you.. a tightening and you are saying What is this?”

She then proceeded to tell me that she saw me posting this. And I didn’t. Which might explain why I haven’t had a good blog post subject. And have been having problems with the plot of my story. I forgot to do what God’s voice said to do.

As I sat and pondered the conversation out of nowhere, I remembered the phrase from Avatar.

This conversation was God’s way of saying to me, “I see you.”

Amid it all - He sees me.
Sometimes, that’s all I need to hear.

As for rehearsing the Goodness of God as it says in Isaiah 63:7 - what is rehearsing? Going over and over and over again ...

How has God been good to me? What praiseworthy deeds has He done?

I looked the verse up in the Message Bible here’s the passage:

All the Things God Has Done That Need Praising
 7-9I’ll make a list of God’s gracious dealings,
   all the things God has done that need praising,
All the generous bounties of God,
   his great goodness to the family of Israel—
Compassion lavished,
   love extravagant.
He said, “Without question these are my people,
   children who would never betray me.”
So he became their Savior.
   In all their troubles,
   he was troubled, too.
He didn’t send someone else to help them.
   He did it himself, in person.
Out of his own love and pity
   he redeemed them.
He rescued them and carried them along
   for a long, long time.

How simple this sounds!!!
Almost too easy - but sometimes we make God too difficult.

I’ll make a list of all the things God has done that need praising.

God is the God of creativity. I have finished two novels.
I have been giving the chance to learn basic dance steps.
He has given me a vision for both of these things.

He gives me songs to sing and sings over me.

Because of a VERY hurtful time about 3 years ago (And I mean because of..) God placed us in a position to receive from Him - to be propelled into a new season with Him.

I can not... Sincerely can not ... imagine what our lives might be now. I know I wouldn’t have been set free from a religious spirit.

He gave me the ability to dream again.

He makes my heart sing and my imagination soar.

He makes me Laugh. Which is helpful because He gave me this humor.

He speaks to me in my language. (A feat not everyone can do.)

I would be completely and utterly worthless if not for My King.

Isaiah 63:7 will be an important verse around the Laundry Pile for a long time.


Growin' with it! said...

"Compassion lavished, love extravagant" very, very true. i needed this today. needed to be reminded that HE sees me and all that is around me lately. great post.

jugglingpaynes said...

Such beautiful thoughts you have! I hope you are feeling better now.

The "I see you" phrase reminded me of the phrase used in yoga, "Nahmaste." Nahmaste means "The light in me bows to the light in you." It's a phrase that stirs my own spiritual thoughts.

Peace and Laughter,

Michelle said...

beautiful post!

Vicki said...