Have you ever had one of those days where you think your mood ring (if you wore one) would explode?
I have high highs and low lows. David had the same kind of thing. The only way to turn it around is to change the way you think -- but in the depths of the low,
all the bushes around you contain contain an enemy.
Ninjas ready to strike.
When I'm in one of those moods - I also tend to be desirous to rant about the things that I wanted to rant about before.
Like people who made no effort to communicate with me (even though I tried) -- and yet still want to pretend there's a relationship. I actually have an easier time communicating with people who didn't pretend there was a relationship, than I do with those that did. (I know it's because I was more emotionally invested in the relationship. And therefore more let down when it was one sided.)
or the one constant -- I don't like fake people. They make me twitchy.
or that time --- when that thing -- and ... yeah, you see where I'm going with this.
It can be an interesting ride. It's probably a good thing I don't have a mood ring.
When these moods strike- platitudes are my enemy. The disdain I have for them is enormous. Grate on my teeth kind of annoyance.
Generally speaking, I am fairly optimistic, easy-going, kind of person. (note that I did not say stress free)
but there are just times -- when the glass is half empty.
or - horror of horrors - just a glass.
Coming out of a low place, though - makes me cherish and relish life and the randomness that God has given me.
I can completely relate to David's psalms..going from one extreme thought (They're coming to get me) to the other (he puts my enemies at my feet) ... You know what?? I enjoy that God knows where I am even in the lowest of the low places. Especially when they feel so damn solitary.
I'm a WYSIWYG person. What you see is what you get. Which includes the random blog post from somewhere lower than a high place...
Even so - I know.....
I KNOW -
there WILL be something beautiful come from it.